You know you're tired when you continue a conversation with a 10 year old that goes like this:

matthew says: (10:40:33 PM)
wow it's so amazing
matthew says: (10:41:43 PM)
it's like i am the alpha and the omaga
Victoria says: (10:42:34 PM)
what
matthew says: (10:43:18 PM)
what do u mean?
Victoria says: (10:44:22 PM)
alpha and omega
Victoria says: (10:44:23 PM)
wth
matthew says: (10:44:35 PM)
haha
matthew says: (10:44:44 PM)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
matthew says: (10:45:06 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Victoria says: (10:45:38 PM)
Matthew are you okay???
matthew says: (10:46:45 PM)
i don't know ask emmy the italian man
Victoria says: (10:47:05 PM)
okay i know you're totally not okay
matthew says: (10:47:26 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
matthew says: (10:48:15 PM)
do not tell emmy ,emmy(please tell him)
Victoria says: (10:48:24 PM)
kam kuat
Victoria says: (10:48:26 PM)
you're too weird
matthew says: (10:48:43 PM)
i'm a crazy man
matthew says: (10:48:47 PM)
lalala
Victoria says: (10:49:02 PM)
i think we all know that
Victoria says: (10:49:03 PM)
hahaha
matthew says: (10:49:25 PM)
do u like kam kuats?
Victoria says: (10:49:54 PM)
yes very much
matthew says: (10:50:06 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Victoria says:
why you never blog anymore aye
then you can have more funnaye nicks
:D
heeheehee

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
lol
lazy to update:P

Victoria says:
you've been lazy for months
tsk

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
indeed

Victoria says:
hahahaha

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
blogging is tiring, you know!

Victoria says:
lol
blogging is good
that you can keep track and reflect on your growth
hahaha

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
haha:P
true, true
well, we shall see if i become less lazy soon:P
then maybe i shall start updating again:)

Victoria says:
hahahhahaha
you may start now with this:
Victoria says, I should blog
as i can keep track of my growth
but then again, i'm so lazy
so I shall end with the last 2 lines to my dearest hottest most awesome girl i've ever met and known but too shy to let her know my feelings: 'Matthew loves you, just that you don't know it yet' and 'And i'll be here, loving you.... always'
:D:D:D
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
haha:P

Victoria says:
I helped you blog alr

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
right

Victoria says:
go put itt up now
:P

Matthew And I'll be here, loving you. says:
okay:P

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If only the girl read it... now wouldn't that be nice Matthew? :D
Was out for almost the whole day today! Half a day at church, and the other half with my cousins. =)

I am truly blessed to have so many caring people around me today.
Thanks Matthew for accompanying me to walk Jordan home and waiting for the bus to come,
thanks Joch for going with me to roam the awesomely huge NTUC at ang mo kio,
and thanks Alyosius for bringing me out for dessert!

It's so nice to spend time with your cousins individually. Joch has really grown up, such a pretty lady now. She still retains that generous heart of hers and remains that easy-going person I came to know from young, which is really awesome! And of course, spending time with Aloy has always been a joy. He makes you laugh every single minute, just by being himself. Thanks for sharing so much with me today, and for all the laughs! I wish you well as you go chase your 'other half'.

I'll see Joel tomorrow too! =))) It has been long!

Me: Mama Jeans?
Aloy: Yes Mama Jeans.
Me: WHAT MAMA JEANS?
Aloy: MAMA(nazal voice) genes...
Me: Oh.... * bursts out laughing* i thought you meant Mama Jeans... like old grandmama story, mama jeans...
Aloy: * looks confused* where's the link?!
Me: I don't know... go find the link yourself!
Me: You really have mama genes.
Aloy: EH... wait wait wait, if I have mama genes, so do you! Next time when we're 50 and I ask you 'how are you?' and I say 'I'm fine' and you will ask again, 'how are you?' and I will say' Mama genes' and you will burst out laughing because you only have long term memory and not short term one!

Yes, we are that nonsensical.
good luck with your 3 *winks* weeks boy. =)

There is simply so many things to say about Cambodia that I might take a long while to type it out here. So I think I'm taking the better option- I am going to scrapbook my experience, and when I am done with the journaling as well, I'll put it up on the Travel Blog, that has been abandoned for so long now!

Bible-sharing and the little talk with Father Brian was good! It seems that we're going to be on a different track next year regarding the Gift Bearers, and that many exciting things are in store! Yes, I can't help but feel so excited that I may be able to bring the Gift Bearers to Cambodia next year! It hasn't been approved yet, or agreed by the whole committee( we're meeting tomorrow to discuss a part of this) but there is this glimmer of hope there, and it is indeed something to look forward to and an incentive to work even harder at the A levels next year. Yes, I can't help exclaiming how much I <3 Cambodia - perhaps even Mariel has gotten a little annoyed. But I love it so much because it has changed a lot of my perspective, and it has given me the opportunity to experience the true joy of serving. It has already made my Christmas a meaningful event!

I am also so happy to receive an email (finally) from Koem Ny, and I hope Chiet would send one soon. And Borat even, but then again, Borat doesn't know my email. And Tina too! Oh I wonder how Tina is doing, I hope she has safely arrived in Amsterdam and that she would have the best Christmas after having spent it away in Cambodia away from family and friends just to serve the Cambodians for 5 years already! She is one person that has truly inspired me with her actions, and she has so nicely invited me to come visit Cambodia and has offered me a place in her house, and to bring me around! She's the nicest lady ever!

I miss mummy, daddy and my brothers, and my brothers, and my brothers... Yes, I do miss Emmy and Max a lot- it has been weeks! It feels like centuries! It is so hard to live without them, its like there's so little excitement in my life! What a change in perspective, and I think I would have thought myself mad had I seen this post 3 years ago! I miss teasing them, running around chasing them, teasing Emmy, laughing at Max being cute, teasing Emmy again... and of course I miss daddy and his lame jokes and mummy for her funny actions and her presence that never fails to put a smile on my face. =)

I should get back to Tess. I hate tragic stories and Hardy really really makes this one so hard to read- I feel as if tears may flow like a river once the book ends, already it is Phase six, and the story can't get any worse. But Hardy foreshadows so much, you know it just goes downhill from there. =( I shall prepare some tissue before I get back to the book.

Christmas is coming! <3
Jing Jing! Watch out for the Vickariel's!=)
I feel so groggy and sleepy now, thanks to the late night yesterday and having to wake up early to meet up with T12 people to plan our English lessons in Cambodia!

Yes indeed, Cambodia is but only 2 days away. I don't know anyone that well, and since one whole class is coming along with us, there's that whole cliquish thing again. But, meeting up with them today was quite alright, they are pretty nice girls and I think it would be fun hanging out with them. Well, it would indeed be a whole new experience that not only asks for me to step out of my comfortable home or 'hotel life' when I am overseas, it also requires me to step out of my comfortable spot in which my friends are always with me, and to make new ones! Plus, it means not seeing my family for 10 days while I am in Cambodia, and then having to wait for another 7 days before they FINALLY come home to me from faraway Australia.

'What Marvels The Lord Has Worked For Us!' Indeed! I thought the theme was very apt, especially to the Gift Bearers! Its a miracle how we are still around for 2 years, with an inexperienced leader, and 5 other young girls, all not knowing where we are going, not knowing our purpose, not knowing what lies ahead. But, thanks to God, we are still existing and going strong. Sitting with them at the table yesterday was a blast. The young ones were W-I-L-D. The older ones, were less so, but we all had an enjoyable time. We got up there on stage and embarrassed ourselves together, sang together, danced together, got crazy together, indeed, I think we have become a Ministry-Community! For all those who laughed at our goal of forming Community, here's a BIG HAH! at you. Afterall, nothing is impossible with God.

And I think it is important to thank every one of the Gift Bearers, who stuck to the group and faithfully did their duties week after week, especially my dedicated committee, the parents for their undying support and for always keeping a look- out for us, the priests as well, Constance for guiding me and us when we were lost, Shawn for also being with us in our cradle years, Father Gerard Weerakoon, and all those who have helped out in one way or another! Last but no least, God, for without Him, everything would have collapsed! Without any of you, there would be no Gift Bearers at all!

Looking back, yes, I would say, indeed we are blessed.

And thanks Marcus for bringing us all to Expo yesterday! We are truly grateful!
All I can say is, I'm terribly sorry.

If we only met a year later right?

Maybe the best route is, we walk together,

as best friends. for now.

And I'm really glad that you're putting this whole relationship into God's hands. :)

If it's God's will....

We'll see it in a year or so. :)
Confidence boosters- that's what I need.

Today marks the start of Triduum! I'm rather excited- there's something to look forward to every night! Plus, our item at the dinner is gonna be such a blast! We're entering with smookeeee.... That's pretty awesome!

Okay going back to do some reading.

Thanks Yong for everything. For talking me through things and making me see a little more of what I am. Yes, I guess I'm more than I ever thought I was.

The start of a healing process.
Just got back.

Its nice being 'the other'.

4 days of experiencing exclusivity.

1 day of suffocation.

But 3 full days of a little meaningfulness.

Workaholic?

Yes definitely.

Only because to tune it out.

Was the trip impactful?

No. I still felt like that spoilt child working only for a holiday.

I should stop being a Martha and start being a Mary.

But how to when they don't let you be yourself around them?

Yes indeed you can't.

I can't wait to go back to church, and feel like myself again.